You cant buy a life

I watched you die tonight.

I didn’t know you more
Than three or four sentences

Just casual words exchanged,

“What happened to the car?”

“Where would you like it towed?”

You smiled, simply, kindly

Just doing your job

Just helping out a frightened girl

On the side of a dangerous highway.

I heard the noise

I did not see the car

What was she thinking?

How could she leave you there,

Speeding off in a frantic hurry like that?

It must have been fear, I decide.

All I remember were

The golden headlights

As I leapt in front of

Countless cars

Screaming, screaming,

“Stop! Stop!”

I pointed at your body

I did not dare to go too close.

The ambulance came.
They lit the flares.

The paramedic approached me-

“He’s passed.”

“Just five deep breaths.”

“It’s out of your control.”

And I learned tonight

You cannot buy a life

With unceasing sobs

And helpless prayers of pleading.

So I’m left to say,

Rest now, sir,

In the arms of the One who loves you most.

I asked Him to give you

His deepest place of love

I asked Him to care for

Your grieving family

I never got to meet your brother

Who, I overheard,

Was on his way

So all I have

Is your full name

R.L.C.

I’ll carry it forever with me.

Dallas

I am on a plane

Flying over rugged mountains

Half asleep from early morning rushing

Smiling at my elderly seat counterpart

Counting the hours

Until I reach Dallas

And still, you find me here.

The smile that I can’t fit into

Words on a page

The delicate words

That tore me apart

The peaceful goodbye-

Painfully quiet

I am still aching in places unknown.

I thought I could escape you

With carefully packed luggage

Boarding pass?

Check.

Carry-on?

Check.

I’ve carried you with me

Seventy two days now

My heart, unthinking, continues to whisper:

Hold me in your thoughts

Love

In a secret embrace

Somehow,

Someday

I’ll let you go.

Express Post

How many times have I

Held back my hands from

Taking a pen and

Writing these words on a page

And mailing it to you

Express post today,

“I miss you more than words could say.”

?

The Worst Pain

The worst pain is when

He sees you

And

He knows you

And

He even has your number

Yet

He never calls,

Never takes it anywhere

It just sits there-

Dead.

Unkissed

In silence

I wait for you

My heart untouched

By the warmth

Of your love

My soul unkissed

By the breath

Of your holiness

Shivering, stammering,

I wait here

My dove,

My ardent angel

How fresh are the buds

The chaos of Winter

As I unthaw

Under your generous light

Spirit, I beg you

Let me be

The one you seek

Let me be

Yours to keep.

Rusty

If I could show you

How ugly you have made me feel

And make you feel it

As deeply and fully and

Cruelly as I have

I wouldn’t.

Because no one should feel like this,

No one should feel like a

Lost, empty and forgotten

Nothing

No one should be left to rust in the rain

As you left me-

Hanging, suspended

Un-remembered and disassociated.

Truthseeker

On your heart

There are many scars

But fresh eyes will be

Rewarded you

As you seek unceasingly

The light that guides.

The journey may be marred

By spiraling falls

Into the blackest of seas

But, without fail,

You will never be alone.

Take comfort

In the warmth

Of that which you seek-

TRUTH

As the heart opens,

And the mind grows
In that which cause

The eyes of the soul to see darkness

The light will be yours

Always

TRUTH will appear

When the mind is ready.